today was a waste!!... everything i did,,.. i mean everything that i was suppose to do were not accomplished! i got a little laid back the whole time not noticing i'm letting the time to pass! god, i always have this dilemma of manana habit!! i hope i could get over it..
i bought 2 books today.. i got it from a booksale in NBS and i started to read it this afternoon (one of the reasons why i havent done any assignments!! bulldung!) however... i need to find the 2nd book of the series because it was out of stock and i cant start reading the 3rd book without it.
i got hooked with it easily... like i've been reading it for hours today which really killed a lot of time!!... help me find the 2nd book alright!!
today we were supposed to practice for the paalam dance, but then it was cancelled because i cannot enter the campus. reason? i was wearing slippers!,.. i cant believe i forgot that damn rule about footwear! one day wasted because of me! hahhaa.... i asked nona if i could go to his house and change ... but there was a tiny little problem if i did so... and that i cant tell... :P
ooooooh... i'll cut it until here.. i dont feel like writing entries. :P
valentines had never felt this bittersweet...
i spent most of my time today hanging out with my friends. not the typical hang out, but something like roaming around the campus. some valentines day huh?... oh well, i'm just glad that the whole time i was never alone, there is always a judy or two in my company.
during classes, the same old boring hours!.. i'm like so restless during those periods. when mr. boni asked us to copy the ever long notes on the acetate... my mind wants to do it but my body was too weak,.. at least my body refuses to do what my mind wants to.
during breaks, we were complete as in... the 12 of us went downstairs to eat lunch together which was kind of cute. hahaha... the twelve sailor soldiers were united! yippie! then again, jasper and namelita are having a little clash at the moment. oh well, i hope they could fix this..
anyway..
after classes, we had our volleyball training AS USUAL. gawd! it was the most haggard training ever... during the start, i was not performing well, i looked stupid. my fellow teammates were spiking the ball and i havent got any good receptions for it! but! when i got hit on my face -it wasnt that bad though- i felt so much energized and was able to somehow perform well on the game.. (as far as i'm concerned) hahhaa
before going home, the usual meeting place, SYNTROFIA! but before doing our thangs, we rampaged to the counter and bought the tasty eggs they were selling.. hahaha gawd! what a date! hahaha.... i can say it is one of the best days with them, and the last valentines day with them as a claretian. . . Awww.. EMO?. .. nAAAAAAAaaah!!
we only need to count days before we graduate, and i'm not ready for it! so much projects, homeworks, things to study and a whole lot more! i cant cope with all of it at the same time. I always tell myself that i wont be having that much load when i go to college! if i could only extend my senior year so that i would be able to do everything i am assigned to do!
we have this PAALAM dance presentation that i have to work on to. but my studies always collide with my interests which only results to stress! Do you guys know that i havent been getting enough sleep lately! and i dont look like a 17 year old teen! god!
have you ever felt like youre on the edge of something? like you are about to fall billions and billions of feet above the ground... infested with large hungry crocodiles... with filthy, sharp teeth which are ready to crush anything or anyone it touches...??.. and your body, cluelessly standing on the cliff of the ravine.. like it is somehow attracting you to jump off it.. you know i't gonna be dangerous and all, but still you wanted to take the risk. it's like you can see a euphoric illusion and you are enticed to go there by jumping off....... not realizing the reality that comes after..... that a part of you is going to die?.........
i would like to take this chance to give my thanks for the fantastic birthday i had yesterday!..
first of..
()mom - for the 17 years of caring, nourishing, loving.. everything. i am so blessed to have you as my mom... i may not say this directly to you cuz i'm too shy to do so... i hope i could have the guts to say these words to her... anyway... i may not be able to say it through words... but i am sure i can express it through actions..
()dad - thank you for being there for me... for backing me up through all my struggles... we may not be that close but i am more than happy to change that... i love you dad
()my relatives (titas, titos, the grands.. etc) - i am blessed to have you guys as my relatives... you made me feel special in every way possible... thank you for everything! love you guys
()my cuz's - thanx for that shopping spree!! i really appreciated that! and i hope to see you soon next year when you come back here in manila!
()my friends-in no particular order-()
* jasper - thank you for the laughs... you made my days worthwhile in claret.. i hope you never get tired of me being your friend. love you!
*freeta - thank you for the understanding,... thank you for giving me the chances.... even if i dont actually deserve some, you are still willing to do so... i love you free!!
*kel - thank you for being such a good costumer... when i do some craps... you are there boosting my confidence in making people happy.... love you!!
*jabin - thank you for the support, for showing me how great i am in all things i do... i love you!!
*dale - thank you for the acceptance...that you never see me as a nuisance or something...and for being an arbiter in every problems we have in the group!!. i love you for that!
*prima - thank you for the patience... i know i could be a pain in the neck sometimes, and still your there eating it all up for me.... love you prima!
*alistair - thank you for the teachings... for showing me the real deal in life.. thank you for making me realize that this is no teleserye... i love you melbs!
*nona - thank you for the wackiness!!.... everything you do, you never fail to give me a laugh!! i love you nona!! i hope you never change!
*namelle - thank you for the sweetness... people may not see it but in your little ways, you make me happy and satisfied... thank you. mel!! love you
*michael - thank you for your being trustworthy.. i hope i could learn things from you... and yeah,.. for bitching around that it makes me laugh!! love you!
*justine - since you wanted to be last.... :P hahaha .. anyway.. thank you for being frank.. that you never show me how good i am,.. you always give me a view of my imperfections... not to bury me to the ground but to actually change those ways... and i'm proud of you for that.. love you!!
()for the SMAians - i love you guys!! i am still proud to be part of thiis section ... in every way, you make me feel like i'm no stranger!! thanks!!
()schoolmates - love you guys!!! you made me feel that i am a freyr member!! thanks for all your caring and stuffs you do to me!!... i'm gonna miss 'em...
its been a while since i've written a new entry in this "forsaken" blog... whew... this is rather new for me.. i have all the time this vacation to at least post a few thoughts here, but no, ... maybe i got tired of doing this habit.. though i still want to continue blogging.
my friends are having entries about their new year's resolutions, and i feel like having one as well...
2006 has been a blessed year for me... considering that it is my last year in claret, i made a bunch of realizations for myself.
i also got a lot of roller coaster rides in life with my family, friends... and other people that affected me;made me change some things that are somehow unacceptable. and stuffs like that..:P
i tend spend a lot of moments with my schoolmates who i only have a few months left to stay with. gawd, time goes fast and i didnt even notice it... so, please tolerate my cuddles and hugs to you guys!!.. :P please... harharhar... dont worry cuz i wont be able to do as much as what i do to you right now... :P
like what jeffrey said, the judies havent gone to anywhere without having them accompanied by the other judies... i mean, nobody spend time alone,,.. eating in the canteen, or whatsoever... i guess its only natural, to maximize the opportunities to be with each other cuz we wont be getting this much time when we are in college. :P
my new year's resolutionss.. hm.....
1.> lessen my lies... i'm getting tired of it so i might as well get rid of it..
2.> if people do anything bad at me,.. i should always think that i'm no less than his evil deeds if i would get my revenge on them by doing the same thing as he/she does to me...
3.> learn to speak your mind and fight your own belief
this is it i guess... i'll try to think of my other resolutions as well... i hope i could remember them.. :P
kay sigla ng gabi ang lahat ay kay saya,.. nagluto ang ate ng manok at tinola.. sa bahai ng kuya ay merong litsunan pa.. ang bawat tahanan ay mayroong iba't iba.. tau na giliw .. magsalo na tau meron pa tayong tinapay at keso.. diba noche buena sa gabing ito at bukas ay araw ng pasko!!
ilang oras nalang
P A S K O N A!!!
haii... bakasyon na .. christmas na... december 31 na... andaming mangyayari... pero ready na ba ako?
feeling ko andami kong namiss ngayong buwan na toh... daming nangyari pero konti lang ang naggrab kong mga opportunities.. pero ok lang... at least patapos na ang taon, i have to leave all the bad things behind in 2006 and welcome myself for 2007... sana maging mganda ang lahat.. :P
The cold December winds blowing
Going around my face caressing
like your sweet talk waving
goodbye to me you’re saying
enough of this regretting
the words you said I’m forgetting
cuz now i pack my bags leaving
memories of you I aint taking
new life the sun is bringing
right here in my face kissing
lovely dew of the morning
giving boost to a new life starting
sniff sniff... i'm loaded with lots of problems right now... i need help guy!
it's been how many weeks now since i posted an entry in this blog... whew.. good thing i am able to spare a little time for it today...
nothing unusual has happened to me lately... like i only go to school just for me to be in school... and everything else feels like black and white... it seems that dont have concrete reasons in doing what i have to do since classes resumed last sem break. although i really loved the rejuvinating results of "hybernation" that i had, still, the sudden change gave me a shock, and i wasnt ready for it. however, as time passes, i continued to be someone far from being me.. crap...
i'm not the usual JL that i knew before... so much has changed but i'm not really sure whether i should continue to develop or just stop...
not only that i have that kind of dilemma... i've been confused with a lot of things right now... confused with trust... confused with decision making, confused with acceptance, and confused with everything... i'm loaded with too much mental stress.. and i'm having a hard time to cope with my studies... hope i can sort things out so that i'll be able to do what i needed to do.. :(
oh my... i would consider this day as one of the most tiring days of my life... first, we had our volleyball training. though it wasnt much of a training cuz all i did was to pick up balls and stuffs like that... i've been running to and fro for how many hours there. everytime the ball would go somewhere far, i made quite a chase for them and ended up full of languor!.. crap.. of course, after a long exhausting training we decided to play dota... well, i used enchantress, and luckily, we won... anyway that was just the cool part, when we were about to go home, i decided to go home by foot.. i know it sounds stupid but i really need to save money for this christmas season... ya know.. gift giving thing... hahaha.. :P anyway... so that... i ventured through the long street of maginhawa! it made my legs numb when i arrived home... whew! i promise... i wont DO that again! hahaha =P
since many people are having entries about love, i might as well give my opinion regarding the said topic. i've been asked by people on what is love for me. to tell you exactly, i dont know how to explain it. whenever i describe love by my own description, people would say its too shallow, or its too deep... :P thus, i am quite confused on what love is. i usually end up questioning myself if what i felt before was love,.. but then, when i look at the bigger picture, people have different meanings for love. i cant figure out how do they have different reactions when they are actually talking about a particular topic? why does is vary?
in love,.. there must be no according to's, no he/ she said's,... its something that you feel intimately.. something that you yourself is sure that it is love... dont think that when people say its shallow, its something not going to work out. dont make it change your course, continue to love by your own description, though taking advice could be helpful, .... its your choice anyway.. :P
and dont be afraid to get hurt... it is something you bargain when you choose to love, its more like a test if you are matured enough to stand up and once again, face another love to come.. (if there would be) have faith and good luck!!..
