how many times do i have to feel this way just for me to realize that i should get rid of it... this whole fantasy thing... i always end up being hooked into the temporary feeling of happiness... then i will be enticed with all the nicest things.. hoping and wanting to have all the perfect stuffs... and one day, you will realize that its not true... i shouldnt have done this and that.. should have seen this and that.. daydreaming of what couldve been if i didnt do what you did.. it never ends... why cant i see through him... i just cant keep myself away from him... i mean like, avoiding him cuz you see it never works and it never will.. it would just make you feel worse and say that you shouldve just bargained the friendship rather than to throw everything away.. hah!! but then, i cant hold on for too long... this pain is excruciating... this wont work out when i'm the only one working for it... i mean he likes somebody else... its a one way ride... though some people say that you should give ur love without expecting anything in return.. in reality, it really is painful, i cant imagine how people deal with it.. pretending not to be affected... and when you do everything you can just to please him, and he would think its not worth anything? that's bullshit!.. then you would feel powerless since you are just someone who likes someone... he's not yours nor him considering you as his.. not gonna happen.. i would not be surprised if one day, he would just ignore me and forget all the hardwork i've done... all this for nothing.. i mean yeah.. it is all for nothing... its just somewhat some kind of maintenance for a love that would eventually die... :'(
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remember aside from love not being selfish and whaetever, it SHOUDLNT be stupid.
kung feeling mo imposible to get over that fantasy, tandaan: rome wasn't built in a day.
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