I thought everything is going smoothly... I thought everything would be alright... I thought we could last longer... but longer doesn’t seem to be that long...
I thought we made our promises... I thought we were okay... I even thought we were better than okay... I thought this was my story... But then it was just an ordinary fairytale...
I thought my hopes will keep us alive... I thought we will never be apart… I thought this will never end... I thought you are the person to make me happy.... Yes you did.... you once did....
I thought I would never feel this way... I thought by morning I will see your texts and greet me... i thought by evening I could hear your voice by the phone saying goodnight... I’m going to miss it...
I don’t know what’s going to happen after this… I don’t know if I would scream... or just let it go freely... I don’t know..
I just don’t know..
... It happened so fast I didn’t notice it coming...
Should I cry?... should I cry to my mom..?? or should I weep alone and cry myself to sleep?... I cant make decisions.. I don’t trust myself anymore...
I hate this feeling... this is not what it should be… this doesn’t make sense.. nothing at all!!... Am I going to be okay?... this is what I was trying to avoid.. Now I realized that it can’t be helped... I just hope this wont last... I need to... I have more important things to do than to waste my tears..
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anyways, if it makes you feel any better, i'll try to be here forever. hehehe
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Anonymous, at 9:11 PM GMT+8
tnx alistair... my family and you guys are the only thing that keeps me going... thanks for having you with me,...
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jL son, at 10:21 PM GMT+8
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